But I find as we are traveling this journey a last time (and it is the last time)
The negatives bugging me? The fees. And I don't mean we are asking for $. Nope. Nor do I mean that we do not believe God will not provide for Phoebe's adoption. HE WILL. Of that I have no doubt.
I just can't believe that we are required to pay a fee and be fingerprinted, as if our prints have changed from the last 4 times we did them? I mean, really? And in the added time of getting our Home Study done, we are now under the requirements of Post Placement reports for 5 years, pre paid before we can go get Phoebe.
Now I have no issue sharing how our child is doing for 5 years, none at all. My issue is with the fee, I mean, what if the agency isn't even AROUND 5 years from now that we paid the PP report fees to? It's not like that doesn't happen, we have had 2 agencies we used, one gone, one no longer doing China adoptions.
And we heard recently the orphanage fee has gone up.
I'm annoyed. Not because Phoebe's adoption has steps, has fees, because to us, she is priceless. As are ALL of the children who need families.
It's my fear that wonderful, God led families will be discouraged, will not see past the fees as they continue to increase. This in turn could keep more and more families from children who need them. Good families. Wonderful moms, caring dads who have tons of love to give. That may never get the chance to BE family.
Children, it's supposed to be about the children. And for us, it IS. It's about getting our girl. It's about following God's call, to care for the orphans.
I always share with people who say "we can't afford it", that there are steps to the fees, most all are NOT required right away so you can save, plan, etc. to make it happen, when some think it is an impossible step to take. And that we trust completely in God to get us to our girl.
It just seems that someone should be able to pull up our fingerprints and that be that. Report fees should be due when the reports are being DONE. I don't get paid before I go to work? Do any of you?
It seems like the focus isn't on the children, the ones who matter here.
And that irks me. To my very soul. I KNOW God's plan is for orphaned children to be loved, to be in a family, for us to answer His call. So I don't like to see things that deter people in any way from that plan.
I don't have any choice or say (other than on this blog o' mine) to change any of this, I *wish* I did. And I totally get the safeguards in place to make sure children get good parents/families, that people have to get paid to do the paperwork, etc.
I just know that I don't want anyone to feel they can't go forward for a child, a precious one who NEEDS to be loved, to feel WANTED, to have a name that shows they have a family--and for things to come down to fees like this just screams WRONG to me.
I'm not sure why this is weighing so heavy on my mind. I really don't. I just know that children shouldn't lose getting a family because of MONEY. It's not what God wants.
Since I don't have any quick answers to solve this issue (or world peace either) I'll ask you all how you feel about this?
And to all you who laughed when I said this is our last, please go check out Lolly and Polly advice of the day.(All but you mom, you won't get it, trust me)