We are working on a new direction to go with the main instigator, Chase. No surprise there either. He's very set in his ways and beliefs.
I am stepping back and changing my approach to him. Dad is taking on more of the issues with him. It's giving us calm right now as he reacts totally different to dad when he is talking, asking, telling him things. So as long as it works and reduces the strain, then we are doing okay:)
Started the counseling with Chance and Chloe, just a trip out for ice cream at this point. A good start though. Chase was at a track meet so he didn't go.
I have felt amazed by the love, care, calls, e-mails, comments, help we have been given. I haven't returned them all yet- sorry. But I can tell you, it helped. SO much. I am only human and honestly we were slammed by these kiddos last week. We took some hard hits. And at times I felt very alone in their issues. WELL--- not any more! I am so thankful for everyone who reached out to support us, it's helping us feel the power of prayer and God's Will for these children.
I've been crazy busy showing the house 3 times in 24 hrs. Yeah, 3 times! 3 times to get everyone out, the dog relocated (who freaks out each time) and have the house as clean as possible. I told hubby we can't have immaculate for a showing but we do have the fact that we all live here and everything obviously works. I think that makes up for not being immaculate.
Not that it's a dirty house, trust me, but it was! When I went to work Monday evening I knew there was a showing for Tuesday morn. I was in a hurry. I left dad with the kids and supper to handle, a 7 pound can of ravioli to open. (Our local Walm#rt carries these:) I said "don't worry about the house, I'll run the sweeper in the morning." Welllllll..... wrong thing to say. They left me dishes, dirty floors, dusting, even the kids rooms were not cleaned. OIY.
The urge to strangle someone came over me, but I was the one who said "don't worry about it" so it was strangle self or hustle and clean. I hustled and cleaned. So far the feedback is good, 2 out of the 3 showings are seriously interested parties, the third was a single person and the house is really too big for a single person. I *think* we are done showing for this week, but you never know.
Very busy but most of it good so that's always positive. And honestly, for all of you who sent up prayer or thought of us, thanks. It means a lot. God never told us these kiddos would be easy, but He did give us them to parent and love.
And we do. If they "get it" great, if not, well, we aren't going to stop trying or loving. We just can't.
At least for now we feel we are wading again, not drowning. Ahhh. I really don't like that drowning feeling. It's just downright scary.
I'll take wading. Sure will:)