Thursday, April 29, 2010
laundry ( that's a constant)
trim Cam and dad's hair
early check in of flights
gas up van
charge all the toys we use (see next line)
pack computer, cameras, game systems for the kids
travel call tomorrow
Packed- 3 bags under 44 lbs, I am SO proud- packed for 5 PEOPLE!! (Am I good or what?)
paperwork together and ready
funds out of bank in nice $100 bills
found money belts
bought and hid surprises for Cam and Kat for staying home
credit card aware we are going on trip, may need to use
my hair trimmed- just trimmed, no perm-at-the-last minute ever again
schedule of household for Grandma printed
underwear packed for whole trip- no Chinese ladies laughing at my drawers this time
set up Skype for net book
I like the DONE is bigger than the Do's:) We are almost there. Everyone keeps asking if I am nervous. Not yet. I mean it's a 17 hour trip, how exciting is that. In the middle aisle on the big plane ride, split up is all we could get, I'm not feeling like it's gonna be FUN getting there. So I fully expect to feel excited after we are there and get up Tuesday morn knowing that's the day, we get our sons in the afternoon.
Then I'll be a nervous wreak. I know it. I just can't even picture what the reunion is going to be like, it's been such a long journey that we weren't even sure we would be able to bring home both boys for some time. So I'm having trouble picturing it. I'm pretty sure Chloe is going to launch herself at them and be like glue to them. Of course! I hope we get to actually touch them:) Say "hi it's us, that crazy family that did come back for ya." That we are thrilled to be back and making them our sons. I'll probably have to cry, more than once.
How will they feel? Well, I am hoping they feel just as wanted as she did. I am hoping they realize we didn't just come for them because she loves them and wants them, that we are honored to be their parents as well. We are happy to call them our sons and want to know all there is to know about them. That they can trust us, we are there for them no matter what.
I've loved them from afar for over a year, felt like their momma already, I guess because they were Chloe's bro's and I knew they didn't have a momma, but now we will be able to actually parent them. It's an awesome, God provided miracle. Soon this picture will be the REAL DEAL..... just 5 days from NOW!!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Chloe has been flying high on her joy, she brought up some things I never knew about when I got her. Firstly, did you know I "look funny?" Yeah, I did but apparently the pictures didn't do me justice 'cause she was scared of me. Although she did want to know "why I smelled good?" And we laughed when she said "you no wear clothes 3 weeks then wash?" Uh no. Never tried that, sorry? Yikes. I can't believe she so easily took off what she came in and changed every day for me, no sass. Now she wears something an HOUR and she insists it needs washed. You know, 'cause I don't have ENOUGH laundry to do.
What else, well, I have a bridge to my nose, I know that makes you all want to run screaming, right? And I have different hair. She calls it orange. She points out my fave soda label is RED, my hair is ORANGE.
I asked her what the boys were going to do when they see her, hugs, kisses and she said "huh, NO" like she was grossed out. Then she said they would have this- and she pulled her lips as far as she could get them in a HUGE smile. Okay. So I told her me and Baba better be getting HUGE hugs and kisses and the works, I want HUGS. Pictures and hugs and kisses and love.
I haven't been sleeping well, I was tossing and turning last night and had this concern I could not recall what the word for "son" is. Well, I made sure I recalled it right (I did) with Chloe this morning. "Errr-zahhh." Okay I got it. Daughter "new- r" I learned for her, son for them.
What else has she taught her language impaired mother? Cucumber. One of her fave foods and I can say it in Chinese. I know this will be terribly helpful in my lifetime- yeah right. I can say apple, it's close to cucumber:) I have my standards- hello, how are you, goodbye, thank you, no, yes. Matter of fact when she was on the phone she kept saying "yeah" and I said "suh, suh"(yes, yes) and she finally she "they know what "yeah" means~ I guess to shut me up:)
Chloe is bouncing off the walls, she is beyond excited and keeps saying she wished this week would go by "so fast" and our trip go "very, very slow." I think she realizes it will be the other way around and our time there will go by very fast. We tried to use up some of her energy tomorrow, we cleaned bedroom and took down the extra beds from the foster girls. She was talking the WHOLE DAY and when I sat down with her leaning against my chair, I heard, well, NOTHING. I said to dad, she's asleep isn't she? He confirmed what I knew, she was zonked.
I had to laugh when we shared in Wednesday children's church that we were going to get the boys, one of the kiddos asked "who are you taking back?" I said Chloe thinking they meant just traveling with us but no, they meant a trade in? Uh, no one going back, just more coming. I guess they thought we were tired of someone and trading them in? Man, kids are so funny.
Just 7 days to take off and 9 days till we have the boys. We are so ready to have these guys home and see what their personalities are like. If they are anything like Chloe I may just have to write that book my friend keeps telling me to write about my kids. She's sure it would be a bestseller, as they are such goofs.
Friday, April 23, 2010
We are still waiting on the "In China fees totals" so keep praying!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
God's journey He invited us to come on, over a year ago, fulfilling a promise we made to our daughter but more importantly a promise God clearly made to provide provisions for these siblings to be together, within this family forever. He covered the fees, He scaled the paperwork mountain with us, He gave us the strength to hang on over months and months, till this glorious amazing time.
DAYS till we meet our sons, better yet, DAYS till their sister is reunited with them forever. As the siblings they are.
Nothing sweeter in the world than this. Nothing. I can hardly wait to get on that plane. SONS, we are coming for you, as promised, we want you, we love you and are honored to be your parents.
I was asked to include pictures of Chloe when she heard the news so here it is. What did she say? "Do we go today? What you mean Friday maybe, or next Friday, I don't think so, who say you can go, not go? How they know when we can go, how many pairs of pants to pack, how many pj's, am I packed, did Dad pack yet? Why dad not packed yet, how we get to plane, why we not going now, are we really going to China?"
Pheww, she wears me out:) And apparently herself as well, she's sound asleep on my bed now:) So sweet.
She's thrilled, truly thrilled. Look at that face. Pure JOY.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
Saturday, April 10, 2010
For the first time since we started fostering we asked for respite. This means they go to another approved foster home for the weekend or longer, depending on the situation. Ours have gone for the weekend and will go for our trip for the boys. Why? Honestly-- they are wearing us out. As cute as the buggers are, they have some huge issues that have negatively affected our kids already here. Which places us in the position of protecting our kids from, well... them.
NOT a good place to be in. The girls have some coping skills that are not good. Terrible, in fact. And they can't help it. We know this. But it's hard to recall this when the big nasty behaviors surface and we are coping with them on a daily basis with no improvement. Another issue DONE to them, learning delays from things done to them- things they will possibly NEVER be able to learn.
One has pitted herself against Kat, who remains now as loving and willing to forgive her for most anything. But we know long term we can not let this continue. Funny enough, this child said "I'm a foster kid" and after 3 years of fostering Kat had to ask me, "what's a foster kid?" She really didn't know. We do not treat them any different than ours and ours are expected to accept them as siblings and do, they call them their sisters and brothers. And for good. (makes for some interesting conversations with people:)
Chloe has had some difficulties understanding "why" we foster. To her, you only have foster family if you have NO family, so to tell her they have parents but have issues that the parents can't take care of them but still see them, to her, is incredible. She has said "why they stay here, they have mother, why she no take them, and they not behave why we have them." It's teaching her to care for others and their situations as well as her own self. She can use a lesson in sympathy, she doesn't look for it for herself from her past, so she is very intolerant of others having issues from their past.
So we will recharge this weekend, we are off to shop, not many funds but the boys need a few things I haven't picked up on clearance over the past year, just this week I found the kids shirts for a buck, yep, a dollar! Gotta love Walm*rt, left over from St. Patty's Day, aren't they the neatest? I got one for Chloe, Chase and Chance. Too cool if you ask me:)
Now how was I gonna say "no thanks" to that?
Thursday, April 8, 2010
She proceeded to do something later and I said "don't get smart with your mother." And didn't think anymore of it. Well.... she must have pondered on this a while, then she said (out of the blue to me) "why you not want you kid be smart?" As I recalled where that came from I started laughing. Then I got the "why you joke- ahh me?"
We've been working on her manners, yeah, her bossy self came with little understanding of manners and she has hung onto this over the past year. So we are increasing the reminders for her to get this and not be a "smart" aka rude kid. BTW, she does understand "rude".
Cam has been worried if the brothers will like him. He is very excited and eager for them to come, but he was with Chloe as well and although they are best of buddies now, Chloe didn't really LIKE Cam at first. He wanted to hug and kiss her and she was not so thrilled with that idea and ended up hitting him more than once.
Now I am hoping since he is looking forward to playing ball more than hugging with the brothers that we will be fine. It will be a big adjustment for all I am sure but it will be nice that we have the summer months to get everyone settled in.
Chloe 's big concern last night was the seating in the van. We have had a few people with Mega- families such as our ask how we do it. Well, we travel in 2 vehicles when we all go. Mostly we take turns with the little ones going to the store and such. Chloe does NOT like that the little ones have car seats and get the middle captain chairs in the van.
So when she brought up the boys and "where they sit" her next question, before I even could say "the roof" (Hahah) was "who sit in front, oldest or tallest?" I know she is thinking between her and Kat they will be the "shortest" of the bunch forever, since Chase is already taller than me and even Cam, at 9 is not far from the top of my head:(
My reply? Mom standard. We worry about that when they are HERE. Not here yet, not a problem of today. Chloe does not like this answer but must accept it. She knows that's all she's getting:)
Only adoption news is not about us, but for Jaxon and Drew, as you may have noticed the Chip In is GONE, this would be due to a grant that came in for their family and they now have what they need to get their boys home as well. Isn't God amazing?? He always provides, don't ever forget that. It's awesome to trust in Him and watch Him take care of it. Sure glad He's got my back covered, how about it??
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
She was the beginning of our adoptive and fostering journey, we decided to foster due to her being in foster care and being so loved. We knew we had love to share as well and we have been so blessed by both and hugely blessed to be her momma and Baba.
Good news on the dryer~~
Service call $45
15 minutes to repair
Our undies no longer in the yard- PRICELESS
I'm sure our neighbors are agreeing. It was a thermal thingy ma- jig, something. All I know is for 105 bucks my dryer works like new. AHHH, huge sigh of relief.
I should have known it would be fine, that Miss Kitty again, she stood in the kitchen this morning and folded her hands and prayed our dryer could be fixed for "just a widdle bit of money". Who wouldn't answer that?
I was seriously concerned since I woke up to a massive clap of thunder and all I could think of was, oh no, our undies are in the yard! Never good for your brain to go there first thing in the morning, huh? They did get soaked but it soon cleared up and it ended up being very warm and sunny. Kat declared Jesus must have needed just a short shower this morning to get clean:) See how funny she is?
No adoption news, just hanging out waiting on Article 5. No idea what Article 5 even IS, but waiting for it. I could be waiting for Underwear 12, Jokes 101, Signals from aliens, moon beams, who knows, but wait I do and I am learning to do WELL. I figure God has a plan and He knows when we are supposed to go for whatever reason. And at least we know it's not for the surprise of another sibling, yeah, we asked Chloe to make sure this is it:) Hey, ya never know.
The kids are still passing around a cold, sharing germs like no body's business. Chloe has it now, as does Baba, they better get well, we have a big trip to make soon!
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Chloe got so creative she had to get out the paint brushes and she painted MOM on an egg for me. I feel the love, I feel it. Aren't they pretty eggs?
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Our agency works with the 2 next steps to get us expedited. I just sit back and push them from my trusty computer when they e-mail and say they aren't "SURE" we can go as soon as April 23. And saying it, they are. As a matter of fact, they are saying "no way" to my April 23rd.
Should have known I would jinx it by even stating the day. They are saying now MAY 7 th to avoid the holiday. I was saying "what holiday?" Well, Labor "DAY" which means DAYS. Not ours, theirs.
I'm in labor all right and they should know I don't handle pain well... I've been "birthing" them for a whole year. I'm getting cranky and my ankles are swollen. I'm well done, on the way to being burned, let's just end the "pregnancy" already.
So I am trying to see if we can work around that "holiday" and go sooner than May 7 because ticket prices jump at the beginning of May and stay at $500-700 per PERSON higher. That's enough to make me just sick. For a few days difference. Some one's getting rich and it ain't US. Bummer. Ha ha ha ha.
God's timing. God's timing. Our chant of the year. I can only imagine how had this wait has been for the boys. My heart aches for our sons. We know they were strong to watch their sister go, never knowing if they would see her again , so we know they can endure this.
Seems to me I should just take this cute, adorable little bugger Miss Kat and have her "talk" to some people, she'd surely get us moving along as she is full of honey and no one can resist her. Yeah, mom I know the vinegar from me isn't working:(
I'm off to enjoy my children, they had a ball with April Fool's Day, Chloe said "Hannah say she go to France, when I go to Ch*na and she said "why, why you no go to Ch*na wif me" Hannah said "April Fools." It's supposed to be in the 70's and sunny all weekend, wow, it's going to be a gorgeous Easter, not something we see often. Counting the blessings:)