Thursday, January 29, 2009
Apparently a meeting I went to a few days ago has claimed quite a few victims of this vicious bug and I am just thankful if I DID have to barf, that I felt better not long afterwards.
I have no time to be sick. We have visas to apply for, a document missed by the agency to have authenticated in NY- ahhhhh, hopefully will be able to get everything lined up to leave Feb 19th. Yeah, I said it, Feb 19th. An actual DATE!!
We need- paper back from Consulate, visas, tickets- of course, horrible prices for traveling in Feb:( $800 for Chloe's fees, and our TA. We expect TA next week after everyone is back in from CNY- so late next week, early the second week of Feb would be good.
Will it all come together and we will really meet Miss Chloe girl on Feb 23??? We sure hope so!! Please let it be so, we are so ready for this...............
In other news, we were snowed in yesterday, no school again, guess the kids will be in school till mid July or something like that with all the make up days. Kat and I built a snow girl, isn't she cute???
Off to crash into my bed, so thankful for my bed today:)
Sunday, January 25, 2009
He's not usually very loving toward anyone new, so this really surprised me. There's something about her though, when we had our baby he also responded to her voice and cooed for her the first time she met him! She is very sweet.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
So I apparently did not answer her Highness correctly so she starts this-"I NOT gonna be your girl anymore." Hummmmm... I said "okay, but I am still your momma." "Nope", she said "I find another momma." (Yeah they're lining up to kiss your toes right now baby girl:) So, as I do not get ruffled THIS easily and reply "really, you think so." She must have decided my buttons weren't being pushed and she she ran to me then, saying " you left me behind"- oh the DRAMA- I said "no, I did not-I was still in the same aisle and you were right behind me." "Oh," was all her Highness could come up with so then she said " can we get chicken?"
As a mother of an adopted child, I think I, like many others, feel I must be super alert to signs that something is on her mind about being adopted. But the longer she has been home the more I realize it's just the same as Camden asking why he has red hair- :) or any other question on life they all come up with. It's not really about adoption, it's about THEM. They all have those questions, they all need reconfirmed of our love and our desire to parent THEM. That they are special, they are wonderful to us, just as they are, no matter how they came to us.
Kat's issue? Chloe getting a Ba*bie. She decided later that they would SHARE the Ba*bie, and all is well in her world again. Making us understand that our choice to go older than her by adopting Miss Chloe at age 13 years will be a HUGE benefit to them both. I am so glad we walked right on through when the door to Chloe opened up. She is so loved, special and wanted!
Our boys are doing okay, they have saddened me this week, they are clearly grieving for all they have lost, each child must go through this, no matter how good a home we give them. They are understanding this is not just a different place to stay for awhile. They do not really understand why this has happened and they are sad. I hurt for them, it is hard to not wish to be able to fix this for them but we can not. We just love on them and give them the secure and safe place they can call home if they wish.
Mal had a rough week as well, she was clubbed in the face by a tennis racket when the gym teacher decided the kids should think up their own games to play with sports equipment. She got 3 stitches below the eyebrow and a really nice shiner out of that "game". Thank God it spared her eye.
My week ends with no school tomorrow- already cancelled for the bitter temps we are having, this gives the kids a lovely 4 day weekend. WEEE, joy joy, didn't we just have Christmas break???
Here's what Miss Kat has been up to, watching Big Bird in Japan. We have many copies of Big Bird in China and she watches that over and over, but we found Big Bird in Japan recently and she LOVES it. So here she is singing her favorite part........our future American Idol:) Me thinks she needs more practice to remember all the words and no laughing at her hiking up her pants, even with leggings on underneath she can't keep her britches up. Skinny bug.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
We got some SNOW! We have been waiting for some time to get a decent snow, and as we went out to play we realized this one was too powdery to make a snow man but fun anyway:) We lasted about 45 minutes then in for tea and warming up.
Still happy to see it, it's so pretty, so white. We will send off a picture to Chloe of the snow so she can see what she will be coming home to:) We know she has seen snow but it's still fun to show her.
Seems odd to think we are just WEEKS away from going to get her, WEEKS> after all this time. We hope to see our Travel approval by the end of this month and travel looks to be around the 20th of Feb as a best guess at this point.
Enjoying the day, snow and all, nice that it came on a weekend and we don't HAVE to go anywhere today.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Thursday, January 1, 2009
As I think of the year, I can not think of any regrets! How cool is that? Usually I am pretty hard on myself. I'm fluffy, that's the first thing I regret, I didn't lose weight. My job, same one for 16 years, burn out time - regret to not look for another direction to take with my nursing skill. Regret to not spend enough time with God, not this past year. I GREW so much personally with God I am thankful for his presence in my life, that we are free to say that!
It's amazing to look back and know that I'm fluffy,my baby LOVED fluffy me. Our new boy LOVES fluffy me. I accept fluffy me, not to say I will not do anything about the fluff but I accept the fluff as a badge of honor, not as a burden.
Our baby, ohhh of course I gotta mention the baby. Wow. What a gift. No one else wanted to touch a child like him, many thought we were nuts, to take a child we KNEW would die? How could we? What about our kids? Well, he ended up showing us the amazing gift of pure love, to love with all your heart. He allowed us to learn many, many lessons, about caring for a disabled child, to the rudeness people face that are disabled, to fighting for his needs. My nursing went another direction and I found it was a direction I love. My skill was invaluable to him, he got a momma, nurse, caregiver, protector, all rolled into one. We were the PERFECT match for him.
Then as we grew from having to hand such a precious little man back to God, we were already in process and had found our Miss Chloe girl, going on blind faith, true BLIND faith that the funds we needed to complete her adoption would come, we got word we had been chosen for a grant. WOW> another leap of faith reward.
Our children have grown, they have been able to express their pain over losing the baby and have grown so much emotionally to know that to be different is a-okay. Tristan's death also allowed a terrible memory for Kat to surface and for her to obtain closure of it. That was such an amazing day, I wanted to cry for her so badly, to know something but not be able to tell it and know what happened, we had gotten hints of this issue from her since she came home but were not able to help her. Till Tristan.
Then came the boys. WOWSERS. What can I say. I never knew how involved autism is, how much it varies from person to person affected by it. My mother thinks the little guy "H" was put here to teach me some patience. NOT a strong suit for me, never has been, but I catch her chuckling ( NOT funny mom) when I tell her some of the things he does. He is a full time job, plus. Almost requires constant supervision. "S" is able to play and basically we have learned his quirks and are able to keep his outbursts to a minimum. He still has issues with being too loud, but he has come a long way. He tells me " you my best friend" -it's so funny.
H starts nearly every day "trying again" as we lose a huge portion of what he learned the day before, like the 5* first dates movie. Not as funny in real life, let me assure you:) I am sad for him, to have to go over everything again each day. He really tries too.
Our other wonder kiddos, I do not mention much, but they are well. Mal has a tough personal situation but she handles herself quite maturely and is a great help, she has blessed us with her goof of a boyfriend whom I really like, just don't tell him that. He didn't hesitate to hold our baby, soothe him and I was very impressed. He also fought to wear a skirt to play field hockey 'cause Mal plays. There's true love for ya!
Donovan has little patience for his younger siblings has learned with the new boys that Cam and Kat are not as annoying as he thought :) Guess he likes that they can be entertained with a movie or simple game.
The older boys are here often to bring me their laundry, borrow the car, and eat my food. I can't believe my oldest will be 24 this year, not that it means he is grown, other than in size. They all need their momma so I do not have to feel sad or lonely:) Such is why they have trouble understanding our adopting, they are happy to come back and act like teens again if it involves hand outs of money, ignoring chores and mom cooks:) Ha Ha guys, doesn't work that way- you had your turns.
They actually are great big bro's, the little ones are just thrilled when they come, I always hear " JAY" when he comes in and it's them. I bet he could never sneak in:)
Kat said to me today, I thought you said we go get Chloe tomorrow, one sleep. I said "NO, I said SOON." She said "ahhhh comm"on, what's with that?" Okay then. She clearly shares my impatience. H also thinks for some reason as he is trying to understand we have a girl named Chloe, that she belongs here, but we have to take a trip to go get her- he says "I'm going"- well, no, no you are not. It's not next door. He does not understand that at all. He's very funny.
Well, as I wrap up my overlook of the year in review, I must say 2008 was great. My New Year's resolution? Bring home Chloe, of course.
2009 the Year of Chloe. More blessings. We are honored to become parents again. We truely hope our journey will open eyes to the love of a child, 12,13, 14, doesn't matter, a child needs FAMILY. They are not TOO OLD> we are filled with joy at being Chloe's parents and wish for others to consider taking the chance on love, we assure you that you will be blessed.
We do not advocate just for Chinese children either. Foster if you can, be a mentor, be a sponsor for a child in foster care, adopt from foster care, adopt from any country, adopt a grandparent. Listen to where God is calling you, He will NOT lead you wrong:) When you listen He is just waiting to hand you blessing after blessing after blessing..............................................
Happy New Year to ALL, we hope you reap the blessings:)