Monday, December 29, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
A Tribute to our son, Tristan
12-26-07 to 10-08-08
Our Precious boy should be turning one today,
But instead you have gone away.
Up to heaven you went,
Only 9 months and 12 days on this earth you spent.
Oh, but the many precious memories we have,
It heals our wounded hearts like a salve.
Your smiles, your coos, your love we felt,
The amazing fight you had with the hand you were dealt.
We loved you so much it was hard to let go,
But our love for you helped us to grow.
To love one another and not take for granted,
The many, many seeds that your life planted.
Seeds to grow and spread the joy of your short time here,
A tribute to your life and not to live in fear.
To love openly and much, to enjoy our lives, to share,
For we never know how long we have to care.
In honor of you we will celebrate your day with cake and fun,
Balloons and a candle to celebrate you turning ONE.
You will forever be our angel baby boy,
And when we see you again it will be with joy.
We’ll NEVER forget you baby,
Daddy and Momma
Thursday, December 25, 2008
|Make a Smilebox slideshow|
Here it is, the big day. It started at 6 am, yes, before dark, Cam woke up S knowing once he is up, everyone is up. Rotten boy. (ours, not S) So it was not even light out and we hauled our tired selves downstairs for them to go nuts.
S took one look and back up he went. He was talked into coming back for one gift opening then he went off again. He opened most in his room:) Too much excitement for him. Everyone else went hog wild and in 21 minutes had it done.
We told Mal her savings had to be transferred and was able to surprise her with a laptop, that was what she was saving for:) A nice one, a great deal. Very happy we could pull that off. Donovan got a guitar, he was very happy with that. All in all a good year, fun for all and huge blessings for us to say "Yeah, remember that year that Camden nearly took out the tree with Kat's pogo stick?"
Merry Christmas, enjoy the pictures of our day.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
|Make a Smilebox slideshow|
Guess who stopped in our house early? Yes, the big man, Ho Ho himself, sent to us by our little man, Tristan, or should I say his "elves?" Knowing it is hard to face this Christmas, never having gotten to see a Christmas and his birthday is December 26th. So we are thinking of him and missing him deeply.
We were surprised and honored when we were told we had been chosen for this special surprise and it meant so much being able to tell the kids that it was from Tristan, they haven't forgotten him and they are now assured HE loves them and he will never forget them, that he is safe in the arms of God and he is happy. So they can take this gift and know he is so happy he shared his joy with them :)
They are in AWE of the strings he was able to pull to send the REAL deal, big guy in red, to OUR house a day early and bring gifts!
All I can say is "thanks ELVES" it was very appreciated. I am in tears, happy tears, good memories tears. Another blessing from one very special angel baby boy- his life touched so many and it keeps on:)
A true Christmas miracle. We love you Tristan, forever.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
So far the school called about Donovan, his talking out in class, a certain class. HMM, do they think I will take away his Christmas toys if they call me now?? REALLY?? Go home already. It's 6:30 pm, I am NOT impressed with your "dedication" to the learning and social issues of my kid today. And Merry Christmas to you too.
Guess you can tell I'm a bit unhappy, no LOA for us. News that it "will be mailed this week" from China, meaning our agency will not get it till next week at the soonest. Then the wait for Travel approval will begin. JOY. ANother wait time. just what I wanted- NOT. Guess it will be a nice getaway trip in the cold after Christmas blah days. Going to China. See ya.
Kat gave me some nice drama tonight, girls are DRAMA queens. I have decided this. Boys get up, shake it off and off they go. Miss Kitty got a piece of candy we were given today in this tower of Santa boxes, too cute, each box filled with a treat. So she wanted a hard candy. I said "no, not before supper," so as soon as supper was over she HAD to have one. I told her- as any GOOD mother does, "you shouldn't have that at all, you could choke on it." Don't those things always come back to haunt you???
Just like the "you'll shoot your eye out" she got the candy and she apparently choked. All I see is her gagging. Thinking, GREAT she has a stomach flu NOW!!!! But come to realize she is choking on the blasted piece of candy. She threw up- what does Cam say as I am trying to figure out what she is vomiting over- "Did you touch your uvula?" Where do these kids get this stuff? As he tells me it will make you barf if you do that.
So anyway, after determining there was no uvula touching causing her vomiting and she was saying she felt like the candy was still stuck in her throat, she is now in bed and sad since her throat is sore and is going to be. Thank GOD she did not choke and go hide, as she is prone to do if she thinks she will be in trouble and probably me saying "you could choke on that" would be enough for Miss Sensitive to THINK she might get in trouble.
Enough drama already. Just a quiet peaceful Christmas please. Oh and LOA asap would be nice. Too lazy to post a picture, can't make me, so I'm not gonna do it. Call me grinch I do not care, so there.
Friday, December 19, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
left there confused, no place to call home.
She said not a thing when the police came that day,
only her first name as she was taken away.
To a home for many children, all with no family of their own.
A sad little girl, would now call this orphanage home.
Years past by, little ones came and went,
adoption the girl was told, a big huge event.
So many little ones, even ones with special needs,
so cute and sweet, off they went to new families.
As the girl sat and watched with a sad little smile,
happy for the little ones, all the while.
Wondering when and why, would it ever be her turn?
oh but how she did yearn.
For someone to want HER, a girl of near 14,
would anyone chance to want a teen?
Her days numbered and she knew this to be,
one day a letter came from this "family".
It said "we want you, we wish to adopt YOU,"
it was then that this teen finally knew.
She was WANTED and was cared for,
she couldn't have asked for more.
This family called her daughter and loved her,
they wanted an older child, of this they were sure.
As they sent pictures -they were pale and had red hair,
they had a little girl that looked like her, but she did not care.
For she could see this was a family with love to give,
and they wanted to bring her home with them to live.
As she left all she knew, she gathered her things her family had sent.
She was being adopted, a big huge event.
Would they show up, would they leave her standing alone?
Or would they really want to take her home?
They arrived with a flurry and her mom squealed with delight,
there were kisses and hugs and her mom held her so tight.
Off they went hand in hand, her mom didn't want to let go.
This teenaged girl knew then that it was really so.
It was HER that was wanted, it was no mistake,
they HAD came for her, not a baby to take.
A family for her, a mom, a dad, and siblings for sure.
to be loved and cherished as their daughter forever more.
In honor of our daughter, Lu Yun, waiting in China
Vickie & Ron
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
That's our week in review...........
Monday, November 17, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
I borrowed our first foster girl's baby yesterday and loved on that boy:) It was soooo nice to have a baby in my arms again, even a borrowed one:) We enjoyed his smiles, his cooing, he is one pleasant little guy, and we took a nap, ohhh to have a little one curled around me was a gift. Not replacing our little man, just reminding me and allowing me to heal a little.
Friday, October 31, 2008
1. Can't stand socks, don't wear them unless I have to and they come off as soon as possible. I wear sandals or clogs till I am laughed and shamed into wearing socks and real shoes sometime in Jan. or Feb.
2. I like tropical Skittles but I take them and sort them into little piles by color to eat them. I've been called OCD so don't think I don't KNOW.
3. When I was a kid we all went as a family to my Great Aunts' house every Sunday after church for dinner ( I LOVE traditions) and we had Aunt Stella's homemade sweet pickles with mashed potatoes, we scooped the potatoes with the pickles and ate them- to this day I LOVE this food combo, but can't find pickles like Aunt Stella's- no way, not even close. But I can dream.
4. As a kid, all I ever wanted to be was a MOM- the nurse part was more incidental. But suits me too:) I am soooo glad the mom part came true so many times- and hope for MORE:)
5. I have a plaque that survived 9 moves in my adult lifetime including to Germany and back, a few marriages, many kids, that my hubby made me when he was 16 and I was 14. He made it in wood shop and it says "Vickie." I kept it all those years and it hangs in our living room in a place of honor. ( yeah we have one of those great love stories, we were together as first loves, went our separate ways, married others, had kids, came back to each other, both were single again and realize we were always in love with each other. Married happily ever after :) That plaque is one special piece of wood:)
6. I love to do crafts but I can not crochet. I wish I could, it looks easy, but all I can do is one row with my fingers. I think the hooks were made to stab yourself with when you get so frustrated 'cause you can't do it. I give up. Don't get me started on me and sewing machines. AHHHHH.
7. I am a photo- holic. I had over 1000 pics of the baby to be printed, this did not include ones already printed and scrap booked during his short life when we went to make the 4 tri-fold poster boards for his memorial service. Needless to say, we did not miss a day of his life. Weird? Well, okay. I accept the title with pleasure.
Okay I did it. Seven crazy and wacky things all about me. Didn't even take me too awful long either.
I am not tagging anyone else 'cause I just don't feel like it. How's that for stubborn? No, actually it's been a rough week. Not even about the baby, we miss him, not wanting him back here to be in pain, but we just miss HIM being HERE. No more kisses, ohhhh's from him, these are the things we loved about him and will miss for some time.
To top things off we are now foster less. We made a very painful decision to have the 18 year old girl removed from our home. In our time of grief she saw fit to be compiling a list of "wrongdoings" that she perceived we were doing and we just felt that this girl's need for DRAMA far outweighed what we are able to tolerate. Our life is NOT about drama and we told her that from the beginning.
Being as drama -free as possible with teens in the house, is how we provide the stable, loving and secure environment that we feel best nurtures all children into healthy adults. Life is not just about ONE person and when you try to make it that, you can lose sight of the importance of LIVING, loving and caring about others. She was the first we have ever had removed so this was a long and painful decision for us. We do not ever want to think we failed a child, but in this case, we clearly did not. She was unable to accept a normal way of life. I've always said fostering is not for wimps, it is really hard but totally worth it, we still feel this way.
There very well could be a reason God showed us this, maybe we have another child in our future that will really NEED our home and we are now open to accept another. Maybe I am meant to go to China soon and this is why? We do not know, I just pray all will work out in His time as I try not to get more and more paranoid that time is slipping by and if we do not hear something soon we will be looking at the heartbreak of NOT having Chloe home for Christmas. Hard not to feel as October comes to a close that we have been slammed this month but we stand strong in our faith and know there is a bigger plan in the works and I just have to learn to be more patient to see it revealed. Ahhh, that patience thing AGAIN. Man. I really am NOT good with that, but I'm trying:)
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Please pray for him, for healing if this is meant to be, if not, strength for us to accept and show grace in handing this precious gift back to his Maker.
We have Hospice in, we are doing all we can to try to get his bowels moving ( never wanted anyone to poop so badly!!) but it may be an underlying issue that can not be helped. We should know within a few days good or bad. I will try to update but I can't hardly stand to leave his side.
9 months of blessing of this wonderful child. We thank you Lord, and if you must take him, then we will rejoice in the time we had him.
Everyone HUG YOUR BABIES. In honor of our boy:)
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Okay, someone in my house is messing with my head. Not that it's very hard to do that. You know the saying- it's not the big things that put you over the edge, it's one little thing.
ANYWAY- I have a perpetual calendar that I flip every night. I had it on the 22nd, thinking, wow, time is going so SLOW this month. I finally realized the calendar I was looking at to flip to the right day and realized it was OCTOBER's month. So the 22nd would be Wednesday, today, but I am in the wrong MONTH??So really, there is just 6 days left in September!! WOW. BTW- 19 days logged in:) Yup, still counting:) We got a big ol' pack of papers, stuff to sign, notarize, send back, not anything IMPORTANT just silly stuff, like we release the agency of any liability when we travel - that makes us feel safe-not. Never signed one of those for last time! Parting with more $$, then got an e-mail that someone wanted to donate to our adoption, bless them, we have watched that meter sit at 1 contributor for so long- but they said they were trying to donate and the chip in wasn't working. If this happens/ed to anyone else, PLEASE, please let us know. We are getting more excited about travel but also more anxious about the funds, we trust in God leading us to this child, and know He will provide for us to get her somehow.
I think it's harder to trust it will come when you KNOW it has to, we are scrimped to the max, and we HAVE to trust in Him to send the amount we have to have. A real test of faith! We were able to fund Kat's adoption almost 100% on our own, we just can not do that this time. So I trust:)
We got the neatest medical equipment thingy, a Sma+t vest for Mr. T. It is to help keep his lungs clear since he lays flat so much of the time. He is on memory foam and he LOVES his place on the couch, he can get MANY kisses and is NEVER ignored. So we fire up the vest and it shakes him. Pulsates and shakes him. He is SMILING and cooing, Camden asked-"hey is that an automatic butt patter?" which was wayyyy too funny since I have been known to pat for HOURS, this child, and he will fuss the SECOND my hand stops.
But the boy LOVES it. It's really something to see him shaking away and smiling. He gets upset when we TAKE IT OFF!
We visited my Gram tonight and her sister, my great Aunt. It's so hard to see our loved ones we remember as so strong and wonderful when we were little and now they are frail and we know we will not have them forever:) My Grammy is 96 years OLD! She outlived my dad. My Aunt had the baby laying beside her and that sweet woman, who named me- she patted him and called him a girl and did not even realize he had a THING wrong with him. She told me he/ she was a blessing from God:) I sure do believe that, along with her too. I am thankful to be able to visit with them and my Aunt recognized me and said " you're all grown up now" like it was a shock to her :) I think I was always her FAVORITE- but shhh, don't tell any of my sibs:)
I am posting a picture of me- Kat took it as I am always taking pictures of HER, she is so stinkin' cute but also a GOOD photographer too, she did make me "pose" and told me just how to put my arm here and smile- quite the bossy little photographer. But as I usually HATE any pics of myself , I'm calling this one decent. I'm so vain- isn't that a Carly S*mon song?????